Sunday, December 28, 2008
Luckily, i didn't take away my blogger.
Alright, i'm just being selfish!
Wanted to have the best of both side.
I meant wordpress and blogger.
Anyway, nobody read this..
(feeling dumb, because nobody reads this)
Just wanna tell those who stumble on here
Merrryyy~ Christmas! (belated one luh!)
and
HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
I think blogging is a venting outlet for me.
And this explains the emo and angry posts that i have been posting.
As well as happy ones!
I feel much better when i blogged everything out.
At least someone here is taking my explanation and yea.
I'm free (till a certain extend) to say whatever i like.
Aiya, i am sad again luh.
Because i realised i've been doing personality test and horoscope to know myself better.
and it's bad. very bad.
Not a right way to know what am i feeling.
I feel lost, 茫然
at a loss, i dont know what is happening to me.
The mixed feelings just came rushing to me.
and i am over sensitive to things beside me.
(This explains why that i had lost my cool alot of times to my manager)
(I know i am naughty luh! i feel very bad already)
My chest feels so tight.
Till i thought something bad will happen.
I dont know.
New year is coming.
And i am not excited about it.
So unlike me..
P.S I have a little secret to share.
These few days, i had alot of panic attacks.
I woke up dreaming or day-dreaming that the world is coming to an end.
Yes, i am very afraid.
For the first time i am so afraid of eating, bathing, taking public transportation, and as well as now (using computer).
Recession hit us already.
And the reason is? Fuel.
Fossil fuel to be exact.
China already built nuclear plants so that they no need to be so dependent on fuel.
I am getting paranoid. You can say why am i feeling so down now.
(i know that there's no use worrying)
Ok ok. This is partially the reason why i am walking to so many places =.=
Not exercising, i know i am fat but i walked because i need to walk my worries off.
call me crazy.
I've walked from my house to east coast rd, those bungalows there. (even though i love to have one of those ;p )
I've walked from my house to pasir ris dog farm.
I've walked to tamp interchange.
Okay. i live in tampines.
But it's just that, WHO WANT TO JOIN ME FOR WALKING?!!?!?!?!?
tell me OK! ;p
feels bored to walk along.
and my mum is the victim that was being pulled along by me.
heehee.
i love you mummy ;p
help
3:21 AM
