Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Labels: what is it that you always cared?

You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self.

On the other hand, you don't really care what they think.

This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality.

Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching.

Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow.

Your Love, You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over.

Your first love lasts forever.

You are responsible to the feeling of your lover.

The chance to betray your lover is none.

You have luck with children.

That's what my birthday means.. LOL

Monday, September 29, 2008

Labels: HELLO ?

Sunday, September 28, 2008

What a weird dream...
A brillant madness that burns as fiercely as the crimson blood.


Is this a premonition? or just a normal dream?

I feel you near me once again..

And WTF was i thinking?!


Today work with Lucy, Raihanah, Mariana and Rizall.
And yes, I miss IVAN !

I droolled..........*bangwall*
It's super paiseh la...

"I dont mind crossing your path again.
I just want to hug you tight..
And maybe to be just with you as long as i can remember anything.
You should know you're the key to my heart.
And perhaps, i should just stop trying.. (:

For once, bravely and openly...
3 years in agony..
Can't post what i want to..
Now....
I just wanna tell you, I miss you Tan Zhi Hao.."



And and and and...
I think I WANT TO GO JOGGING NOW.
I've GOT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ANIME to WATCH!!!

Grrrrr~!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Labels: Be myself?

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

It's been such a long time since I blogged!
It's like 9.07am and I'm still at home.
I don't feel like going to school, because it's raining so heavily..
Rain, rain, rain...why does it always make me feel soooo... lonely and sad?

Anyway, back to topic!
I shall use short and simple sentences;
and write in a bimbo way.
Hahaha~!


Qhui is feeling better these few days.
Qhui is crazy about losing weight.
Qhui is still having blocked nose and flu. )):
Headaches attack are quite often too!!!
All in all, Qhui hates being sicked for so LONG !

Qhui is totally in love with Japanese Anime.
Qhui love Ghost Hunt.
Qhui love Death Note.
Qhui love Lovely Complex.
And I must admit, she's been a little lonely.
Looking at Joey with her hwj,
HaoPeng with his "aiai",
SeokKian with her sweet BF,
Amaliya with her middle orange (in spain middle orange means another spouse),
Christopher with his Kaya girl,
Nadia with her new BF,
Ashley with his new crush. (and that crush is interested in him).
Jessie with her dear Weiyi,
Fifi with her chinese boyfiee~,

So many happy endings.
Qhui is happy for them;
however she wants someone for herself too (:
Met so many wrong guys...
It's time for someone real !
She believe that fate will store surprises for her!


Ok lahh, it's damn irritating to write like this. hahaha.
I need to go do something!
Blog more later and post more pictures!
hee.

a labyrinthine maze in my mind.
Just so you know.. (:

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Today is the 49th day after my Grandmother passed away..
Well, relatives came over my house to pray to my Grandmother.
Quite a busy day of chatting, eating and of course, bonding. (:
Played some DOTA/Hero Siege; it's interesting i would say..
Because of the noob me, we had to use cheat codes so that my cousins can show me how to play Hero Siege.
Hahaha, i know, i lousy mah!


Had some food for thoughts pass the weekend,
felt that all things were unnecessary.
All the truths; all the lies; all the feelings; all the thinking; all the actions; all the promises.
They were nothing, but just troubles doubles for me.
Sometimes, when thing goes out of hand,
all we need to do is to let go.

They said that letting go means you're a coward.
But i feel that to let go of something you adore/love,
actually requires lots of courage.
When we often like something, we want to be surrounded by them.
To put down something you adore/love so much that we have emotional ties with them,
it's such a painful things to do.
Do you feel like this too? I do.
Once again, who doesn't has a broken heart before? (:


I feel much more better now.
Clarity is all i needed.
I feel better when he+she doesn't talk to me.
I like it when he+she doesn't even say hi.
I love it when he+she gives me cold shoulder.
know why?
Because it means that we guys are over, yes over.
We are much less than even acquaintance;
maybe even less that something i recongized.


Even when i say "Hi", it doesn't show anything..
Even when i smile, it doesn't mean i am happy when i see you..
Even when i say "How are you", it doesn't mean i care.
Afterall, i'm just being crude to people who doesn't deserve anything much.
Nah, i won't even call your name or call to you.
Maybe you will find the sound familiar when i said "hi".
Maybe you will find my smile familiar when i always use that to cheer you guys up.
Maybe you will find my concerning more than a friend.
Maybe, till then, you will find a stranger infront of you. (:



Anyway, back to topic!
Today had my dinner with HongWei, Judy, ML and me.
tsktsk, the whole dinner cost $120.45.

Guess what!?
HongWei footed the bill!!!!!!
Woohooo, such chivlary!! *clap clap*
Charismatic right?! *wolf whistling*
Then we had our walk at Marina Square;
the dinner was so full that i wanna explode already.
Even till now i could still taste the Soft shell crab with Spaghetti in Wafu cream tomato sauce behind my throat.
And the lesson is?
Dont eat soft shell crab, the taste lingers!

but anyway, the macha ice cream with waffle is nice.
And i feel like eating poached egg!
wooohooo~
heehee, Judy and me had some secret snapshots of HongWei and ML(HongWei's new target)
and that whole mission was commanded by HongWei.
damn stupid la.
It's like Judy and me were pointing at my HP and creating bullshits.

Oh well, Hungry people make the most angry remarks.
But i'm so full~
I feel so nice and full?
Full again, maybe contented?
Yes. I am (:
Absolutely.

I miss riding on YanQi's bike.
Woohooo~
Thanks for giving me such adventurous ride of my life.
and i still miss slacking with you la !

Labels: happy like a donkey :D

Saturday, September 13, 2008

I'm tired.
But i just wanna blog.
I will use short sentences.
Cause i can't think properly.


These few days, i missed so many people.
I miss Kok Wei. x92830272320
I miss Wen Jie. x 891272362936
I miss Aloysius.
I miss Ivan.
I miss Stella.
I miss Seri.
I miss Amaliah.
I miss NadNad.
I miss Jun Liang.
I miss Chin Siang.
I miss Esmonde.
I miss XiuHui.
I miss Him.


Someone in class look like KokWei.
They're like duplicate.
I miss KokWei.. )):
But WeiYi isn't as cute as KokWei.
(Joking lar)



I miss WenJie.
I left my heart in Auckland.
I want to get it back so badly.
So, march i will go there.
Get my heart back.
Bring WenJie back for NS (:



I miss Him.
I left my heart with him.
Please, give it back to me?


because without it, i'm like a Zombie.
I dont have the courage to see you.
So, put it at one side.
I will go get it.
Please, stop hanging on it.


Ok.
I'm tired.
Drained out.
Headache is acting on me.
i need sweet dreams.
Bless me some?


I hope somebody misses me too :D




i wanna get next to you.
just you.
yea, you (:

Labels: musical words :D

I saw a post that is written very funny-ly and stupid-ly.




somehow, it makes me realised that we need 3 or more people to create a nice and exciting movie :D

opps, not movie, but somehow a lousy quality "clip".




and girl,
you definitely need more people to join in the crew with you.






otherwise, this whole clip is getting more boredd.
till that time, don't blame the audience for not supporting you!
*cheers*




LMAO.



Yours Sincerely,
QingHui (:

Labels: funny larrr.

Friday, September 12, 2008

It feels SO NICE to just converse in ENGLISH.
nothing more but typing, no maths, no science, no computing, no codes.
I love cognitive, I love Communication.
I HATE SCIENCE; COMPUTING.

arghhh.
I know it won't kill to learn things out of my best.
TSK.
BUT I REALLY CANNOT DO SCIENCE AND MATHS.


bangwall.
during o level i mugged maths and science like mad, yet i get c6 and d7 respectively.
and i didnt really study geography and humanities.
i get b4 and above?

SEE. WHAT is this?






QINGHUI JIAYOU BAHS.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The way Ivan worte his feeling in blog to Eileen make me miss my ex.

arghhh.


QINGHUI, jiayou LAH.
hais.

Labels: nothing much

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

is it me being the one that is paranoid,
or is it just things turn out to be like this?


because i'm getting sick of everything.
it's getting so disgusting.
getting comments abt me when you are the one that did the things.
gross, eeeew.
so, go away..


only talk to me if you wanna say something else;
otherwise, i'll be uninterested in conversation..

thanks, other comments will be much less appreciated. (:









oh ya, this week is the World Hunger Relief Week;
help them out alright! (:
You can buy the bands at KFC, A&W, PIZZAHUT..


i need to work harder to get good grades :D
and i'm always late for lessons.
QingHui QingHui, you must NOT let your lazy bones get into your way!


I TOTALLY LOVE MY COMMUNICATION FACI la!
she's a NEWS REPORTER.
I'm STARTING TO LIKE W45Q more and MORE :D .
lol.
Watched 4bia in class. but then give up watching.
BECAUSE BECAUSE i really cannot tahan ghost stories.
it's like, *roll eyes* damn irritating lor.




i'm getting back on the track (:
i just want to be myself.
fight for what i want
live the life i wanted.
(:



ahhh, i know i always preech.
ok. i stop..
heehee.






and do you know good luck always come after bad luck?
hee.

Labels: across the deep blue ocean..

TELL me i'm okay..

because i actually WEEP a lil when i watched License to Wed.
OMG. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?


WAKE UP!!


I WANT TO GO AUCKLAND SO BADLY NOW.
):



and the air ticket to Auckland is like 1,500.
i will go there if i have that obscenely huge amount of money in my pocket.


gosh, you never know why i wanna go there.
because that half-kiwi wenjie wanna bring me on a road trip.
arghhhh.


damnnn!
I'm so-gonna scrimp and save my pay for Auckland!



I NEED A NEW LIFE. @(*#)(&$#(@^$#@*) !!
GET A LIFE, QINGHUI!
BOO >:(

Labels: it's turning upside down

Monday, September 8, 2008

I ... I feel like blogging now...
Just a sudden urge, so i'm satisfying myself now.
(oh yes, i know i sound wrong. hmmm)
WAHAHA.



Work is damn tired today even though i practically do NOTHING at ALL.
From 7am to 9pm.
14 damn-ed/cursed/slow/torturing/f-up/tiring HOURS.
i ate so many chocolates; like more than 4?!
Passengers gave us chocolates. heehee.





felt a little restless, so i went to play with the butterflies.
and yes, they are pretty little fragile, beautiful/easily-crushed/amazing/colourful creature.
they just light up my day.
I SWEAR i can sit there all day long just to see them flutter around me.
The butterfly garden is totally a nature retreat that consists 1000 butterflies even though i saw a few being stepped *so minus 4 or 5 butterflies.*
They have the stick and leaf insects that played hide and seek with you,
ohh ohh, and i always win when playing hide and seek.
THEREFORE, i've found them all!
heehee.
no no, i'm not trying to advertise BUT it's really very nice in there!




Work make me realise how scary i can get to,
my emotions fluctuate like from a high end to a super low end.
At times, i sat UNDER the counter peeling my finger's dead and thick skin (not on the chairs).
Some other times, i GRABBED Anmin and poked fun of him.
Another times, i keep messaging ex-collaegues; because i miss them real bad ):
Other times, i keep running to toilet, because of bad stomachache.
Sometimes, i just stared hard at one place and think so much.
hahah.



i'm like super booked at Hari Raya.
Working morning plus afternoon shift.
Which is like 7am - 3pm (morning shift in Terminal 3)
and then 3pm - 11pm (afternoon shift in Terminal 1)
tell me it's all worth it because i get 10dollars per hour.
So, ONE DAY, 160 DOLLARS!!!!
YAHHOOOO~



i know it's bored just to work everyday,
well, i also believe that i will get to enjoy my life when i have the money $$$ :D
i'm just trying to psycho myself.
Because it sucks to just work, and work, and WORK all your weekends and holidays OFF.
But least, i enjoyed;
somehow or rather..





i know i'm mad.
life is never easy before..
i have to find a way out,
before i could handle other problemmsss (:



sorry, photography skills suck.
bear with my ugly photos.
hope you see the beauty in it :D





in a mean while...
photobucket is damn fucking slow. KNN&&@^@*^#@!*%...
5 mins gone, still 69% done.
GOSHHH. i want to give up, it's like 1.19 am NOW, and there is school tml!
...
...
...
...
lalala~and lalalala~
..
..
..
patience running out~~~~..
1 song gonee.. WTF 99%..
=.=

(UGHH, i forget... i mus resize the damn photos. KNS.)



OKAY, done. =.=
finally after some minSSSS of hard work..










oh, one more thing.
forget abt the "V" sign i'm making.
out of my damn mind.
burrrrr~

Labels: set me free baby

Saturday, September 6, 2008

Take me away,
a secret place;
a sweet escape;
to paradise;
for hoilday~

then nobody cries,
there will only be butterflies...



i know i'll be alright (:


I can't wait to see WENJIE in the land of KIWIS =D

ughhhh, but i have to wait for march to go auckland and find you! humphhss..

Labels: yes; i feel better

Sometimes, it's so hard to explain why you do something when there is so many other explanations AGAINST you.
especially when there is NO TRUST between each other.
I dont think i'll need to explain since you dont see a need in it.

ughhh, it seems like i'm like a culprit for everything.

and i think i shall leave thing as it is.
Because if you think that i'm happy for doing everything till this extent,
the answer will be a big NO.

(:

And about Alex's case,
i just realised the whole damn story.
it's unbelieveable.
I just can't believe my ears.

Woah, story-collector, collecting stories abt me;
combining everything together and then target at me.
it just feel sucky when the truth come out.

i should never in the first place find the truth.
because when the truth is out, more things come to light.
when more things come to light, i THEN realise that,
people WHOM ONCE CARE DOES BITE too..

doesnt the bite feel quite painful, does it?

no, i'm not trying to have a open quarrel with you.
i just feel that you ought to know.
Dont you?


THIS WHOLE SAGA WOULD NEVER END.
So pls, END IT.



Oh ya,
W45Q is SO FUN.
When there is Jancie and Vignette..
They really you know, just brighten up my day (:
HAHA.




BOO, so many things on my mind.
I just dont know how to handle it.
Ashley and Haopeng said that i should take a break off them.
should i do this?


P/S. when choices come limited, every choice you take post a great disadvatage on you. I, sometimes, feel lost even when i can see things clearly.

Labels: assholes.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

You should know i'm not feeling that good.

ughh.

It's been pouring rain lately;
i guess, my heart is pouring too..

:(

Labels: i'm so not sure..

Monday, September 1, 2008

Felt a lil compelled to blog because today is Michelle's birthday.
Albeit that i'm so tired now. .
TskTsk.

BUT i should give my lovely friend credits for being such a nice friend for me (:
*GRINS*


HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY MICHELLE(:
we're going to celebrate it later.

LALALA~


michelle bought a "just came out from toilet" blouse that is hand-chosen by Qinghui itself.
hahah.
AND BOO, my mum said i look fat in it..
BUT oh well, style must be equal to comfortable !
I feel super at home with that blouse, because i just came out of toliet from that. xP



Can i ask?
will my wildest dreamS be able to come true?
Am i silly for pursuing it?
Tell me it's all worth it.
I felt the special connections.
yes, i'm crazy.

i'm crazily into it.
crazily into it..
and it feels nice just by looking and visualizing it.
nice is the only word i can squeeze through my stupid vocab-less mind.
mundane, but nice.


tell me i am able to succeed.
tell me i am able to find what i want.
tell me i am going to get what i want.
tell me that i am not one of those boring people in this fucking boring world.
and it sucks being un-noticed.




*나는 포기할 수 없고 나가 원하는 무슨 추구 계속해서, 나가 원하는 무슨 나는 얻고!
*¡No puedo dar para arriba y guardaré en perseguir lo que deseo, y conseguiré lo que deseo!
*Je ne peux pas abandonner et je continuerai à poursuivre ce que je veux, et obtiendrai je ce que je veux !
*私はあきらめることができないし、私はほしいと思うものが私はほしいと思う、得るものが追求し続け!
(I cannot give up and i shall keep on pursuing what i want, and i will get what i want!)

hope i get it all right.



gong yoo
Gong yoo
GOng yoo
GONg yoo
GONG yoo
GONG Yoo
GONG YOo
GONG YOO
he belongs to GOH QING HUI >.<
and because this is what GOH QING HUI said so.
So, he shall be.
TRUST ME (:

Labels: is a happy crime =D

Sometimes people aren't going to trust you;
And it may be for no reason at all.


Sometimes, people just judge you on what they think you will do;
on who they think you are.
And there's really nothing you can do about it.

But just remember one thing..
They're not cheating you, they're cheating themselves.

Labels: think about it.

kisses

youyouyou.

I loved you when the skies are red;
and it's turning blue now..

You might be thinking;
But i really miss your soft sweet lips on my lip.

sshhh...

leave me alone

FRIENDS
-ASH-
-ALOYSIUS-
-ANDY-
-CLEFF-
-JIAMING-
-JOEL-
-KEL-
-REBECCA-
-ZHIHAO-


FAMILIES
-EDMOND-
-SEOKKIAN-
-XIAOHUI-
-XIAOSI-


W47E
-HUIRU-
-TINGUAN-
-AIN-
-JOEY-
-MICHELLE-
-RAHMAN-


W45Q
-SHU XIAN-
-JESSIE-
-ELLY-
-VIGNETTE-
-FABIAN-
-WENDY-
-NINA-
-FIFI-

wounds &&tears

July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
December 2008

credits x x x