Thursday, August 14, 2008
I guess i always have problems with other people.
Maybe due to my character.
Think so.. *sigh*
Life isn't as pleasant as what storybook promised as it is..
But I guess my bigger flaw is my character.
I always keep things from people,
I stayed quiet not telling anything,
all these.. Isn’t there to create miscommunication between us….
Not because I don't trust you all.
Not because I feel insecure about myself; about what I’m doing.
But because I know I can handle problems on my own,
or rather it's the problem between that person and me.
So, why let you guys get involved and put all in great disadvantage?
The most important part is,
because I need people (especially YOU) to trust me...
I need people to trust me that i can cross over a hurdle.
I need people to trust me that i can survive during a big crisis.
I need your trust, your support.
But I don’t need your siding, like how you supported that person.
Like how you throw me away when you didn’t get acknowledgement from me.
And all these happened because I wanted you to trust me.
It's that easy, if you had.
"If" is the word.
All wouldn't have happened.
Did you trust me all along, or did you forget? (:
and I don't want arguments to happen when things go wrong.
I don't want you to worry about me.
Because I know, I know HuiHui has the abilities to pick up the rotten pieces.
And even though, I love to linger in the past.
BUT I know, ME, GOH QING HUI will move on (be it reluctantly or willingly) to be a better person.
That is, IF you had trusted me.. in the first place (:
Viola~
So, after everything, after this semester ended,
you get what I’m doing?
I hope, for now.
Everything will end..
Reality VS Dream
Head VS Heart
Fighting VS Living Struggling VS Relaxing
Real VS Fake
Which side are you on?
I don't know.
Am I waiting?
Am I still fighting for my own right?
Am I still stuck?
I hope I’m not.
Because he don't deserve it.
I deserve a better one.. (:
OH YA. TINGUAN~ I'm so PAISEH la!!
Anyway I’m still glad that I can talk to him despite all the stupid things i said.
and i didnt know i can have so much hatred in such a small heart.
I guess, it's overflowing..
heehee.
Last day of school was ok.
But I’m so tired.
Shared and bought a high heel for Michelle.
LOL. I just give little bit only. =p
Hope she like it. (:
I wanted to write something more on my emotions.
But it's filling with hatred )):
I don’t want to write something that is filled with anger.
Happiness, don't go far away from me.
To have happiness is such easy thing to do.
But to maintain it, will it be difficult as getting it?
HuiHui, you have to wait okay..
Have some patience.
Time will show you everything. (:
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me
Almost lovers always do..You were all the things I thought I knewAnd I thought we could be..You were everything, everything that I wantedWe were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost itAll of the memories, so close to me, just fade awayAll this time you were pretendingSo much for my happy endingIt's nice to know that you were thereThanks for acting like you caredAnd making me feel like I was the only oneIt's nice to know we had it allThanks for watching as I fallAnd letting me know we were done...I wanna go Zoo, SOMEONE! Bring me there ):
help
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