Friday, August 1, 2008
The smell of Death still lurks in my nose...
I just feel that everything happened so fast,
so fast that i could hardly accept the fact that she's gone.
I have a huge craving for sweet stuffs.
And i thought SUGAR can make me happy.
I gobble so many chocolates, sweets..
Yet, nothing seems to help..
I thought she'd be fine.
I thought she's going to come out from hospital.
I thought.. she can survive longer after the medication.
Everything seems to be in a vague after she left.
and i wonder why..
I feel so restless..
And will our family still have the normal gathering as usual?
Why Why Why?
I just feel lost.
I thought i won't cry.
I thought i wont feel that heartpain.
But i'm just so wrong.
Guess life is always like this.
Everytime i'm alone,
The heart crunching feeling just act up so fast that i could even block it.
I should get going...
30/07/2008 the glamorous day that she leave her sufferings at 0011.
I'm glad that so many people were there to send her off.
I'm glad i'm there.
I'm glad.
i'm glad.
so glad. i cannot explained how happy i am.
I didnt miss anything.
I talked to her.
I held her hands like how she would hold mine when i'm small.
and i think,
i'm missing her more than usual (:
help
12:38 AM
